VJC cross country! / 12.3.11
& to my beloved sister BINGZ, CHEER UP!!! :D There's still next year, and i'm sure we can all pull through (((: ily!
Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed
There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray
Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread
Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed
There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray
Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread
Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.
No doubt, yesterday wasn't such a pleasant day after all. I did not manage to hit my target but i guess i'm alright with my performance. :) I think few would expect me to appear in the top 10, but i made it there with sheer determination. (hahaha grats to jiang too!) I think this just proves to show that your training is not the best. I got injured time and again under you, but my legs are fine when i'm not training under you. says alot about your training. And 3 of your runners are currently injured. Have you done anything about it? Have you shown your care and concern? I hope you have, because i think that's the responsibility of every coach. I hope you won't repeat your mistakes. (even though it's obviously not possible cause you never change. an old dog can't learn new tricks. you're such a friggin stubborn person you refuse to change and i bet you don't have a clue how many people don't like you.) I hope that you've looked at their medical cert clearly and keyed it into your head their period of rest lest you accuse them for having a bad attitude just because they don't turn up for CCA, like you did to me. Sucks having a teacher accuse you for being slack during training cause i never did and it's not my fault my sweat glands doesn't work as well as others'. It's not my fault i don't sweat much when others are sweating like a sweat production machine. I can even tell you that i don't sweat during PE.
There's so much i wanna say here. I want so badly to pour out everything. I want the whole world to know who you are, your true self. Half the world is blinded by your "kind" acts. But you know what, it will never last long, which is why people often ditch you, and you end up with a petite team.
Oh well, i think life will not be smooth sailing, and i think i'll arrange a time to meet your face to face and clarify everything.
I'm just gonna leave you with 2 photos. They're the people who makes everything worthwhile (:
& to my beloved sister BINGZ, CHEER UP!!! :D There's still next year, and i'm sure we can all pull through (((: ily!
&& to my beloved sister ALEENA, CONGRATS!! YOU DID IT! SO PROUD OF YOU ^^
&&& to my beloved sister LEILEI, thanks so much for all your support, encouragement and hth sessions :)) you're the best peacemaker anyone can every find. without you, i wouldn't know what to do. all the best for nationals!!!
