2. for getting injured at times i'm not suppose to, which results in basically unproductive days

3. for being so unmotivated to work on my weak points

4. for feeling tired after morning training so much so that i'm unable to make it for afternoon training, and underperform the next morning and the days after

5. for quitting ballet. i really love dancing, how i wish i could still get back at that

6. for being a spendthrift- i totally spent a 1000 bucks on myself (excluding food) since EOYs

7. for being so freaking slow at everything and anything. i was slower than the cedar girls today whattt

8. for being unable to talk, cause talking's a chore to me. i'd rather stay quiet yknow, but if i do, i'd have 0 friends how nice a character to pass on to me

9. for having christmas party this sat, when it's the last day of swimming before Andy goes on holiday, and i'd have no swimming under him for a week

10. for not being able to push myself to improve during trainings

i just can't stand myself anymore