Jay Park/Park Jaebom (& Chacha malone)'s speechless.
NO IT'S NOT A KOREAN SONG. IT'S AN ENGLISH SONG.
I know it's hard to imagine this to end up without the kiss from the one that you have loved for so long
I know it's hard to imagine this can't live up to havin' kids knowing that the thought is long gone
I've come to the conclusion that we are both losin' what we've come so far to build
And there is no confusion no gimmick, no illusion to how sad it makes me feel
Chorus: I'm speechless Can't believe it's over now Why did we take this route happily never after
I'm speechless Feelin' far from sober now I'm gonna be hung over now 'cause nothin' else matters
Should I drink my tears away There's nothin' left to say But let's just hope for a better tomorrow
No plan to make a stay No not another day Inaudible drownin' in sorrow
I'm speechless I'm speechless
I'm speechless I'm speechless
I can't believe I'm still standing I can't believe cloud nine's landing Lost grip of love when I thought we had this Friends or not, we're damaged
We learn to walk and to talk and laugh and cry Why is it so hard to learn to say goodbye?
I could've sworn I was stronger I wish I could've had longer
It's time to wake up from the dreams and make up for the things I set aside when we were together but everyone and everything didn't wanna wait on me can't expect a sudden change in the weather
Chorus:
Please help me
Nobody can hear me baby I cannot breathe I know God may just take me but I cannot leave
I'm in this way too deep to swim myself ashore I need your help
Chorus:
I'm speechless...
I really like his voice, and it's so goood to hear him sing sucha song other than the usual koreanish. Touching...
Yknow it's like after so many weeks, i wonder if i'll ever get there, whether all this time is worth it? I'm not sure anymore. The effort i've put in doesn't seem to reciprocate, i'm not sure if all this is just my fault, whether the issue lies with me. I'm still lagging behind, and the feeling sucks. Although i feel good after running, for at least working out, i feel bad for being so slow, for always being the last few coming in (although there are usually only 4 ppl training). Swimming with the VJ people has always made training less stressful cause it's a bunch of well, not the kaylynnish or xiuwenish kind of people, so i need not chase after people, i'm the one setting the standard, setting the target. But my timings are horrendous, and it's just as good as when i was in primary 6. I haven't improved since then, or rather made tremendous improvement but fell to rock bottom ever since IP entered my life.
Have i been using IP as an excuse for my slow timings in trainings, my tiredness and lack of stamina in trainings? Yknow, getting a C6 in EOYs i really unacceptable, and even though i think i worked hard for it, stopped training for EOYs, i'm still nowhere. I'm still a nobody, a nobody who has yet to find her identity. I'm not a swimmer, nor am i a runner, needless to say a climber (<-- i'm constantly prohibited to go for training. It's like God has it all planned that every week, there must be some changes to the other training schedules that would clash with rock's.)
No doubt, swimming and running is an entirely different sport from other sports. It doesn't just take a few training sessions to get your form back. It takes months, and because of this, i've been telling myself that it's all because of IP that made me become so eew. Such a disgusting person, to have to give up training and maintaining my standard just because of frigging studies or marks. And up to now, i'm not sure if i've made the right choice to sacrifice my passion (sports) for sth i'm not so passionate about (studies). Although i'm quite certain, i made the wrong choice coming to IP.