and 2 ppl asked me to smile more.

and i realised. i do smile. but not in class.

like yesterday, enan was just asking me "how come you're always smiling?"

and then i reflected about it.

i guess it's time for me to really enjoy class time, school time.

it's time for me to stop deceiving myself that i love school/studying.

to tell you the truth, i really do not like studying. but i love learning.

the only honest reason i can give to enan is because i really love trainings, and swimming just makes me smile. Swimming allows me to forget about all my worries, and just focus on swimming. my stroke, my kick.

it's not that i don't enjoy school. but hmm, how should i put it? it's just not me.

if this society isn't so academically-focused, and i'd be able to do well just by swimming, i'd give up anything to fully focus on swimming. rly rly rly.

i'll try. to smile more. in school.