brooding mood / 11.4.10
i think i should really say this, when i'm actually brooding over things deeply.

during this whole time, i've been pretty caught up with things, work, trainings. i'm not sure if i'm actually doing the right thing, making the right decisions. but i'm so grateful for such understanding friends who put up with my black face, who ensured that i was aware of what was going on in class when i was away in brunei (cat :):):)!!), who encourage me for my competitions, who doesn't mind delaying smp meetings just because of my trainings. i honestly feel very guilty about smp. i'm so sorry azmi, we havent started things because of me. i'm so grateful for friends who encourage me with those fine words, you never fail to make me wonder how you can actually be such a inspiring person. no doubt, you're a good leader, a good student councillor,teh :D i'm so grateful for mary, yan, and jiamin for being such great teammates for IH project. I'm so sorry i didn't put in as much effort as i would have wanted to. but thanks for helping me out (:

it's the bottomest i've ever reached, i never really went through this before. all these failures, all these obstacles. I pray that the Lord will actually see me through this and witness myself becoming stronger and stronger.